Let me think...
Buddha said unable to talk. It'd be much easier just to use this as my summary.
This is my first time to be fully independent, hopefully not too dependent on others.Mainly I revolved around natural buildings and the kitchen. I enjoyed the first two weeks, living every day to its fullest extent, immersing myself into every moment. Experienced many first times, only one of which required parental guidance (Da Huan). Got to know people from all walks of lives, all genuine. We worked, chatted, lived under the same roof. Somehow I became a tai chi shifu. Fingers crossed I got it right. We always had tea and long chats at night during PDC. Then we'd wake up in the middle of the nights to water plants. No wonder the bananas had a unique flavour. Also, don't mess with the crispy rice cake.
My favourite task here is drying firewoods. Stacking them around the rocket stove, keeping its structure stable, turning them to the other side sometimes, just like playing lego when little. So much fun!
Once came 50 people and I broke the record for the most dishes I've washed. The plates here are great for strength training. Took an hour to finish. Really challenging.
The other day I walked barefoot on a place sprawled with thorns and recalled a few lines from the Bible, "In sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life. Thorns also and thistles shall it bring forth to thee." I think permaculture doesn't require such hardship, kinda like rebuilding Eden I guess. Plant some tubers may I suggest.
The first time I got back to the city I felt it lifeless. I guess it's not that natural than up here. Better go out and up more.
The most touching moment would be Xiao Bai and Fay Yü went out in a big rain to get veggies for me to cook. Hopefully the rain up here wouldn't make you bald or I'd feel really really guilty. As for the chef, he needs much more training.
After two weeks, with two returned to school and the announcement of my exam scores, I started to think about my future and many voices that doubted the reason I came up here arose. I became mindless of what I were doing and eventually strayed off from the present, trapped in incessant thoughts. When working, I found it hard to concentrate, did it absent-mindedly and sometimes even just wanted to rest. I came back to life after a week. Now I look back and see I faltered easily when facing a crossroad. Hope I learn from it and remain cool next time.
So many memories here. There are some challenges awaiting down there. Hope when the time comes I can handle them with ease, follow my inner voices, live more environmentally friendly and fully.